2015. What made this year so special? I mean, did anything of significance really happen that year? For a 14-year-old version of me, it did. This would not only be the year that my family made the big move to Scotland, but also when I joined Reckless Abandon Ministries (actually called Heart of Teens at the time).
Rewind to the four or five years leading up to this moment…to say that I was a little bit of a mess spiritually would be a big understatement. For those of you who are familiar with my testimony, anxiety has been a battle of mine for a very long time. This was especially the case during these 4 or 5 years of deputation. Constant fear and agonizing worry became the norm from day to day. Instead of digging into the Word of God and praying for His help like I should have been, I grew further and further away from Him. Not only was I afraid of the world now, but I was afraid of Him. Instead of looking at Him as a compassionate Father and loving God, I had this mental image of almost a dictator, ready to strike whenever I messed up or got even a little out of line. For the next few years of my life, I wouldn’t have any idea just how messed up this way of thinking really was…
Fast-forward to 2015.
I was a brand-new writer for Reckless Abandon Ministries. Having never actually written for a blog before, I had no idea just how much my nose would be forced in the Word, and when it was, I was shocked by what I found. Countless articles written over the course of the next couple of years would all point me to the same conclusion – my God is a God of love. A God of compassion. A God that seeks to protect and have a relationship with His children and to point them in the right path.
This was mind-blowing for me. I had always heard it growing up in churches and from my family, but it wasn’t until after I had been writing for Reckless Abandon for a while that this would really hit deep with me. God wasn’t out to get me and micro-manage my every move. He loved me and was there with me to guide and look out for me. Take a look at these verses:
“The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.” –Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” –Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
God is with you. He takes delight in you. He rejoices over you. His plans are to prosper you. These are just a few of the many things that I have learned through writing with the amazing group of people at Reckless Abandon and digging into God’s Word with them. That being said, I didn’t learn these things by myself. Being able to reflect openly about Scripture with these incredible other writers not only helped me to grow in my walk with the Lord, but has also helped me make many new friendships along the way.
I am so incredibly thankful for each and every one of you that I had the opportunity of writing alongside. You guys are such a blessing and I hope that God continues to bless you guys and this ministry!