I was because He loves. I am because He loves. I will be because He loves.
Timelines are crucial for man. We fixate our lives around a clock. Constantly progressing from one event to the next. It allows us to savor moments, as we know they are short lived. Or the opposite, where it gives us hope knowing this moment will soon end and we may move on. Regardless of the prospects of how the day ends, one thing is evident – time changes things.
After enrolling in college, I did what most – who do not know what the next step is – do…I took a gap year. I moved overseas for the next year and a half, au pairing. I will never forget the day I landed in Montana, USA, on January 13th, 2017. I started meeting loads of people and it was a tedious process, due to the sole reason that I had this thought: “This is pointless.” I could only grasp the concept that (be it tomorrow or perhaps only in five years time) these people would no longer be present in my life. Things would change; we would all move on.
Hence, I decided to recluse instead of enjoying those moments we would be in each other’s lives. This was the perfect opening for the opposing one, Satan, to creep in and plague my thoughts. By not surrounding myself with a godly community, I stripped myself of an opportunity for truth to be spoken into my life. Without these truths, fighting the battle of my thoughts was greater than my strength and I began to fall. I began to fall into despair, loneliness, severe anxiety, and developing signs of depression. These are in complete opposition to what I had always known. I had known hope, fellowship, peace, and compassionate love.
My God drew me close and pulled me out of places I did not belong. There is but one place man belongs and that is in the hands of their Creator. I was able to learn from my experience and grow in understanding. I was because He loves. And so I began to sing a new song, one extracted from Psalms 118:13-14. My Lord, My God became my strength and my defense. He brought a community to me. Friends who insisted on being there and being apart of my life.
In Genesis 2:18, the Lord tells listening ears that ‘it is not good for man to be alone’. Furthermore, in Galatians 6:2, Proverbs 17:17, 1 Peter 4:8, Ecclesiastes 4:9-12, and so many more examples, the Word reiterates the importance of community. Loving one another as Christ loved us (John 15:12). However, simply knowing these things was not good enough because faith without action is empty. God calls us to go (Mark 16:15), to be (Galatians 5:22-23), and to do (John 14:12). It was time to take action and daily receive God’s great love (Lamentations 3:22-23) by allowing myself to be in community. I am able to be vulnerable and open; to share and declare what I know to be true. I am because He loves.
Therefore, I no longer fear goodbyes and no longer embrace isolation, for as a wise friend once told me – what the devil can isolate, he can destroy. I had accepted the fact that time changes things and forgotten that my Lord does not live in time. He is the God of time, whereas, I had foolishly served time as though it were my god. I had given it the power to say when, where, and how my life ought to look like.
I renounce the thought that ‘this is pointless’. Daily, God’s love for man is renewed, never running out, a mercy-filled faithfulness. Jesus never left me to complete isolation, He is our Rabbi (John 3:2) and friend (John 15:15). I will be faithful in my love toward others as well as myself, for He has shown me great love. Thus, I will be because He loves.
Even if the people I meet today are no longer in my life as time progresses by, I have hope that we will see each other again in Heaven. As we are promised a hope and a future in the Lord (Jeremiah 29:11), we will one day dwell with Jesus forevermore (John 14:3).
So I pray you have hope, fellowship, peace, and compassionate love. For you were because He loves. You are because He loves. You will be because He loves. Go, be and do as our Rabbi Jesus taught.
Praise the Holy Spirit for He is our Helper. Amen.