I am a neat freak. I love everything to be clean and organized (although my mom is probably laughing as she reads this because she wouldn’t say I am, but I am). I keep my school desk organized, I love to have my room clean, I keep countless calendars to stay organized, and lists are truly amazing. Because of this, when my life is a mess, I shove it all in a corner and pretend everything is perfect.
I hate to show the dirty, ugly mess that is my life. When I say mess, I don’t just mean the physical messes that I talked about above, but also the sins that I avoid because I don’t want to face them. I mess up a lot. I am not perfect. I am human. I let people down because I mess up. But there is a third piece to this as well – the emotions. I tend to be an emotional roller coaster that never stops. I feel great one moment and then the next I am sad and depressed. But when I think of these three things all jumbled up together, a song comes to mind. The song is Come to the Table by Sidewalk Prophets. The chorus and third verse say this:
‘To the thief, to the doubter,
To the hero and the coward,
To the prisoner and the soldier,
To the young, to the older;
All who hunger, all who thirst,
All the last, all the first,
All the paupers and the princes,
All who fail, you’ve been forgiven;
All who dream, all who suffer,
All who loved and lost another;
All the chained, all the free,
All who follow, all who lead;
Anyone who’s been let down;
All the lost, you have been found;
All who’ve been labeled right or wrong;
Everyone who hears this song;
Just come to the table.
Come join the sinners, you have been redeemed;
Take your place beside the Savior now,
Sit down and be set free.
Come to the table;
Just come to the table.’
I love this song so much. It’s so real and raw. But it also includes every one of us in some type of way. It isn’t just talking about a few of us who are mostly perfect but maybe told a few lies. No. This song is talking about every single one of us who have sins and physical and mental messes galore in their closets. It talks about so many different things and tells us, come to the table.
What this song is saying, is that we can come, with all of our sin and mess, and approach the table full of people just like us, and rest in Jesus Christ. We are all human and make mistakes. We hate to admit what we have done wrong and come to terms with it. We all have a huge, gigantic mess. But how comforting is it to hear this song and read what it says? We can come forward with all that we have and all that we are. We can show our mess. We can ask forgiveness and receive God’s rest among all of the messes we have.
I hate opening my closet and seeing what I have done, but I know it is there. But I also know that God has forgiven me of everything that I have done and because of that I can come to the table and rest. I can hold on to the fact that the sins that I have done, and everything I will do in the future, has been paid and forgiven. How amazing that is! I so often get so caught up in all my sins and my mess. I look ahead and think that I will continue to sin because that is who I am, I am a sinner. We are all sinners. But God forgives every single sin and helps us rest among the mess.
I love Psalms 41:10, which says,
“Be still and know that I am God.” (ESV)
I love to put this verse into practice because I can just sit and know that God is with me. He just wants me to come to the table.
I encourage you to try it. Try being still for a second. Pray for the Holy Spirit to come, and just sit in His presence. Sit and rest in the comfort that God loves all of you, even your crazy mess.